still dreaming of a daad

today i was reminded how nice it must be to have a daad scholarship for a master in germany. i gave up at this idea since i realized i have to wait one more year for it, but now i started dreaming again, even if its going to take so long. i didnt give up to all my spider nets of masters and scholarships, long and complicated story which started with such a simple question: what will i do next year?

till then i am still in the hgk. i have to admit sometimes i like my project here very much, it is very challenging, i almost feel like in a survival camp and i see myself getting through and doing well. it is indeed like i was discussing one time with the mentor a place were u are not allowed to make any mistakes and in a place like this, when getting good feedback, it feels ten times better. i am very happy next week my boss proposed me to go with her to the psychiatry clinic where one of our children is at the moment, i am of course curious about these hospitals in germany. after my four years experience and study i will have something to make comparison to: the romanian psychiatry hospitals.

second visit fulda

last weekend i took the train again to fulda. i got a lot of information there in only two days, most of them about a new computer game the children play, what happened lately to all the families in "high society fulda" and some good information about studying further in germany.

i am happy that sunday i had the chance to visit my friend olga who now studies there, unfortunately the bad weather kept us inside the little student room when we could have had the chance to visit the castle there one more time together, even so it was nice to see each other again.

doctor visits

sooner or later this comes too, unfortunately. in my free days this week i went with milena to doctor, once for her, once for me. problems are not big but the entire insurance system makes them lot bigger.
to milena happened that she had to pay 70 euros for the visit and treatment, money that she should get back, when...noone knows;
i didnt have to pay, the doctor sent a bill to the organization at the bureau, just the doctor visit, who knows what happens after it, all i know is that the treatment wont be payed because it's not on the list of the medical treatments reimbursed by the insurance; so i will have to pay 25 euros from my pocket money because i really need it.

about the "famous blue card" that noone knows whats for when we have the axa card, i got the information it is for some doctors actually the same if the use that one or axa. they sincerely specified they prefer axa, a private insurance, maybe easy for them, confusing for us.

work, mails and marburg trains

i can say that things get normal again, after the holidays stress. for me the birocratical stress just begins, and the extremely cold weather doesnt make it more easy.

i started searching for a master and writing mails to ask about language tests and papers and so on. this work takes days as i can see, my free time here is not at all enough. i really started dreaming at days of 28 hours instead of 24, started seeing sleeping preoccupation in a total different perspective ( important enough to become a life dream ), or i have to admit sometimes i would just like to leave everything behind, go to an island like i often talk with mathias and just feel myself living. but indeed, who doesnt wish this.

i ask myself to often if the people at work like me at all, this weird feeling that someone watches you and look for your mistakes leads to lack of motivation and a very low self-esteem.
i still wait for things to get better, till than i try leaving in my world, of mails and marburg trains, as long as they keep my mind busy it's ok.

drei konig spiel

on 6th january the organisation prepared a big theatre play, with costumes and all.

i wasnt allowed to make photos but from what i managed to do i will also post some here:


thats what i could see between all the roll chairs, pls notice josef in the play, jan erick that wanted no photo at all with him dressed like that ( hehe, i am mean );


here is a small devil dressed in angel

and some mustache danny.

well i have to admit i had fun and was impressed of what these children do sometimes.

we wish you a very no chrismas and happy new year

it's easy now when i look behind me at what i did for christmas, back then wasnt at all nice.

my boyfriend came also on 24 december in kirchhain, to discover that the atmosphere wasnt at all as expected, we had no christmas tree, no christmas chocolate, no christmas lights and worse, no christmas free time.
In the heiligeabend ( christmas eve ), all four of us ( me, milena and our boyfriends ) drove to Frau Jung's house ( "the big boss") where we had a nice dinner together. It was very nice to see her in her private life, i felt a bit honored for this and she also made the christmas eve night a bit more beautiful.
In the same night, before the dinner we sang "silent night" for all the children here in all languages we knew very well ( after an year here i really think i could turn back home and do some canto lessons to become a famous singer, ok no i am kidding ).

the only thing we managed to organise ourselves with our boyfriends was to go together a night in marburg, search a club, find none, go to a supermarket that was still open ( we were lucky to find it ), buy drinks and chocolate and make our own radio party at home:


on 29 we didnt work anymore and of course we left kirchhain. milena and mateush in poland for silvester and me and mathias to berlin. here all the fun begins:

first of all...waw a christmas tree:

than again waw big weihnachts markt:

than real munition for the night between the years:

and some special food for the 31 night, we ate this three hours non stop, and one can tell i was struggling:

in the new year i met maite and margot from weimar:

we visited the kunst and flohmarkt in berlin and i just loved these paintings:

and of course to all that came a lot of nice time, us and the panda:

on 4th january 2009 i was back in kirchhain.

a day in frankfurt

the day before our christmas working program me and milena had free.
this is what we did on 23th december 2008:

eating on the bench in front of the main river ( was cold although the sun shines );

making photos with the hungry birds;

eating ice cream;
enjoying the view;

and learning polish, lots of tag tag tag and dobra.
we came back late, mateush was carrying milena who couldnt walk anymore with the high heels shoes.
the next day was christmas eve, me and milena had work from 7